The Wine Diaries-How’s Your Summer Going?

the wine diariesIt’s going we can all agree on that. But how is it going—hot, breezy, sweet, lazy, painful, cool, flashing, sweaty, fast and crazy? The hourglass is glued to the table, the sand trickling through, going, going—gone.

I’m sitting with my toes in the water, sun blazing on my head, the seagulls squawk and dip. I have a summer flashback.  I have a lot of those lately. Why? I guess because I don’t have a spotless mind. Instead, I have a head full of memories most of them random.

My kids are little and the sprinkler is spraying in the backyard. The squealing and laughter a distant yet familiar sound. The dog chases them. The neighbor kids are over, too and everyone’s feet are covered in blades of grass. Dripping wet. Watch out for the dog poop! I shout.

I suppose it’s a normal process of motherhood. When they’re grown and gone you still keep your memories tucked away in a corner of your mind only to surface unbidden by scents, sounds or seasons.

I know I should enjoy the quiet solitude, the peace. There are no more But whyyyyy’s and Pleeeeaaazzzze, Mom’s.  No more hot, sweaty heads out of breath and running. No more melting popsicles and gooey marshmallows on a stick. I should be delighted at the time I have to myself. Ah, the peace and quiet. I can finally read a whole chapter of a book uninterrupted.

I know I should be grateful—thanks for the memories and I’m so glad we had this time together and such. I remember people, strangers saying to me back in those days “enjoy them now, they grow up fast” with a knowing smile. It’s happened. Those days seemed like forever but they did come to an end.

I know what you’re going to say—that I can make new memories. You’re right. We do that too and one day these will be the good old days and we’ll say remember when…? But nothing compares to the little voices, hands and feet.

The Wine Diaries How's your summer going?
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I push my son on the swing. Higher, he says. Again.

Again.

Push. It’s summer and we’re playing.  It’s hot and I can’t catch my breath.

He rides high and squeals, his little feet flailing forward and back. My life flailing forward and back. Swinging along to the rhythm of the ‘under duck’.

The backyard sprinkler sprays everywhere. Thank god for the water. It made us mad and we screamed out in protest when it hit us with its ruthless chill. Yet we were grateful for its reach. Our relief was immense.

Should we pitch a tent? Four strong winds to hold us in a nylon so thin. The stars above with their promising sparkle, a life beyond us. Cool twinkling light. Back and forth. His small hands showing me the stars. Higher, he says.

Oh, how I miss it. You.

Today, it’s hot. I wear a tank top and shorts showing my every scar and dimple of life. Here I am.

Again. The echo of laughter and feet running through. The sun is hot but there’s always a cold spot right in the space that’s empty. The summer breeze blows again. Again.

I flash back. I remember you. Summer is going. Summer is gone.

The long days pass slow but the weeks move fast. For as quick as the berries ripen, they are gone. We may make new summer memories but we can’t help but keep the past ones in a deep corner of our minds. Maybe they keep us. Up they pop at a random sound, scent or season. Summer anniversaries of the heart come up like an unexpected breeze. The eternal emotions of a spotted mind…

Run through the sprinkler, dip your toes in the water, push the swing, listen to the squeals and laughter, pitch a tent and finally savor the berries, for they’ll be gone before you know it. The hourglass is trickling…

WINE: Pair with California’s Barefoot White; a refreshing summer sipper

How’s your summer going? Do you experience random, summer flashbacks or do you live in the moment?

p.s. the ‘spotless mind’ reference is to the film Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind.

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43 Replies to “The Wine Diaries-How’s Your Summer Going?”

  1. Beautiful post. Memories are always close to me and I’m making more. I try to live in the present but I’m everywhere at once, all in light and flow. It’s a good summer, I have loads to be grateful for!

    1. Hi Jodi, Good for you. That’s the way to live it. This: “I’m everywhere at once, all in light and flow” <3

  2. Thanks for sharing your memories. They were beautiful.

    My summer is HOT! And not the good kind of hot either. 😉 I do experience random summer flashbacks from my childhood. Like 4th of July fun, running in sprinklers, swinging on the swing set while my dad grills hamburgers and hot dogs, playing in the pool all day…acting like a shark with my big brother. Haha! Now you have me thinking back on those happy memories. Thanks! 🙂

    1. Thank you, Chrys! I’m glad this post brought back your 4th of July happy memories. That’s awesome. Now, you just need to cool off the temperature a little. 🙂

  3. ***The sun is hot but there’s always a cold spot right in the space that’s empty. ***

    gorgeous.
    heartbreaking.
    Identifiable.
    wonderful piece, Lisa! xxxx

  4. Our summer so far has been rainy, cool and dreary.

    I do sometimes miss those early years but for the most part my boys are becoming such fine young men, I’m enjoying the now too much to long for the days when they needed me so much more.

    1. Hi Vanessa, that’s wonderful. You’ve raised men 🙂 Lucky you, they are still close and you get to enjoy the good stuff on a regular basis. I hope the weather improves out East. We’ve had the opposite here on the West Coast. Hot and dry.

    1. Ha! Right? I can’t think of motherhood without thinking of poop in some way. Whether it’s baby, dog or toddler. It’s a poopy job LOL. Enjoy your babies!

  5. Lovely memories…so well articulated! We all have such precious moments, which become a part of our heart, which we keep on going over and over…never getting tired of them, with moist eyes we bless our stars for those experiences!
    Those little hands grow too fast! Time just flies…A poet has very beautifully expressed the yearning for such treasured moments…If those moments were birds, I could have caged them, I would have nurtured them with love, would have fed them with pearls..

    Thanks for putting so much emotion into this post Lisa, it is tugging at my heart. Summer can never be hot with such awesome moments.

    1. Thank you Balroop! I love that quote <3 "If those moments were birds, I could have caged them, I would have nurtured them with love, would have fed them with pearls." Is that one of your own poems? It sounds like your intuitive writing. Yes, summer can't be too hot and it seems it's an experience rather than a season.

  6. Beautiful memories! My summer memories are of happy times too! I’ve learned to live in the moment, but I’d be dishonest if I said I don’t have flashbacks too! 🙂

    1. Hi Corrine, I’m so glad I’m not the only one having flash backs (hot flashes too 🙂 ). Enjoy the rest of your summer moments!

  7. This is so beautiful and bittersweet.
    They grow so fast and time just doesn’t wait for us to seize the moments —
    Sigh….
    Love this so much.

    1. Hi Kim, exactly, Bittersweet is the right word. Seize the moments…let’s do that! We have at least six weeks left of the lazy days 🙂

  8. A picture full of beautiful memories. They come and go so fast. We want more time and when we have it, we would like to go back in time and enjoy the moment, knowing it will only be a memory one day.
    When I come back to the place I spent entire summers for so many years, I have flashback like you. I hear us laughing, I see us dancing. In a second I am back in the now moment, watching our kids having fun, running around and building their own memories. We are building new ones but old ones seem to stick. Some kind of nostalgia Lisa.
    Have a lovely summer dear and savour each moment if you can. You are making tommorrow’s memories.

    1. Hi Marie, your memories sound lovely. Going back to the same place and then bringing your own children sounds very special. I will definitely take your advice, Marie and savor these moments. Hope you’re enjoying your summer, too!

  9. Ah, you’re making me cry. Mine are at camp right now and I can’t wait to go squeeze them.
    And Eternal Sunshine is my favorite movie.
    I think with even young kids, summer is so fast. I remember it being endless but now all I think about is that I already see back to school signs at Target and I want the endlessness.

    1. Aw, Tamara sorry to make you cry. I get it though. I remember I would enroll my kids in day camp for a week. It was usually in August and it was what I call ‘Mom heaven’ 🙂 Enjoy the quiet moments, Tamara cuz they’ll be back in a blink. Why do the back to school campaigns start so early? Geez. We’re just getting started with summer! p.s. did you see a moose yet?

      1. Not yet! It’s going to happen, though. Our first summer trip is this weekend. Cape Cod. I doubt there are moose there! Then we’re doing the White Mountains of NH which are very full of moose, but it requires an effort unless you’re lucky.
        If that doesn’t work, I do know where to go.. Vermont or Maine… and I have to do it before summer ends. I promised Scarlet!

    1. Aw, me too, Kim. My youngest will be 21 in October 🙂 We were pregnant at the same time LOL. Back when rompers were in style (and they’re in style again). I wore them because they accommodated my growing belly so now when I see them that’s all I see. Pregnant me.

  10. Walking in the warm summer morning the other day brought back memories of summer camp when I was a young girl. I remember the bell ringing (too early!) to signal it was time to wake up. I’ve also looked at some old photos of my boys recently, and it’s shocking to see how little they were! For me, summertime does seem to bring up a lot of memories. Very sweet post, Lisa. 🙂

    1. Summer camp memories are always good ones 🙂 I still remember some of the camp counselors. the kids grow up way too fast although when they’re little it seems like forever. It’s not fair LOL. Thanks for sharing KD!

    1. Thank you, Marcia! Oh, you’re so lucky to have summer year round 🙂 Here, it’s not just another season but an EXPERIENCE we must make the most of with sprinklers and dog poop LOL.

  11. The Fourth of July always brings memories galore since I go to my family’s property in Montana. It’s a rustic patch of 15 acres that I wouldn’t trade for the world. Years ago, my cousin said it best in that none of us had any unhappy memories of that place. I think that’s so rare, especially when a lot of things in life get associated with bad vibes. Even though my grandma and grandpa are gone, their presence lives on over there. It looms in the best of ways.

    1. Wow, Jeri that sounds amazing! I bet the landscape is as beautiful as your summer memories! Your Grandparents’ presence is felt with all the little things and places. Thanks for sharing. 🙂

  12. Sweet memories Lisa….and a lovely tribute to your children. Right now my summer is going wonderfully. Thom and I rent a cabin up in the mountains above our home. We’ve been coming up every summer for a month for the last 20+ years and the place is packed with memories of fun times and people. Thom mentioned just the other day that if everyone we’ve had come up for a visit were still here and all together they wouldn’t come close to fitting on the deck. Many, many sweet memories that I too plan to cherish forever. Happy summer. ~Kathy

    1. Hi Kathy, your place sounds beautiful! What a great way to collect memories with the people you love. ENJOY! Happy Summer to you, too 🙂

  13. I try to live in the moment, but there are always memories. Here in FL it is a teensy bit too hot to spend much time outside, and when its not burning hot, its raining! Beautiful post 🙂

    1. Hi Caroline, oh, yes I have a childhood friend who lives in Florida and she loves coming to visit in the autumn when it’s rainy and windy. We envy her eternal summer. I hope you stay cool!

  14. This summer has been a scorcher. There’s a high sitting on top of Texas and it’s blocking out the rain. I go out only when I need to and sti outside when the sun starts to go down.

    I live for the moment, but I do love strolling down memory lane. My kids are grown now so I cherish the time when they were little.

    Thanks for sharing how your summer is going Lisa! Hope this Monday is off to a great start!

    Cori

    1. Hi Cori, it seems we’re at the same stage of motherhood. Sitting on your porch after the sun goes down sounds lovely. Let’s hope it cools down a little for you. Thanks for sharing your summer thoughts!

  15. Such a lovely, lovely, post, Lisa!!

    I’ve been MIA because I took my girls to the Big Island last week…then got sick…and returned to life this week, lol. I’ll be posting some about our adventures soon…

    I love your summertime memories, and I definitely don’t have a spotless mind, either!! <3 hugs!!

    1. Hi Jane, I’m not sure how I missed your comment. Sorry I’m late to publish it. Yes, if only we had spotless minds 🙂 Hope you had a lovely trip to Hawaii and that you’re feeling better!

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